self-doubt is the absolute worst.
you have enough energy in your body to light up a city.
how beautiful we all are. how beautiful this, whatever this is, is.
how we’re all composed of millions and millions of tissues made up of billions of cells and an infinite number of miniscule little particles we’ve never laid eyes on. how incredible it is that each of us was created through the combination of a labyrinth of tiny little codes strung together so precisely, codes that would give rise to thoughts and movements and sound. our irises alone contain more colours than we’ll ever be able to find words for. when we touch the skin of someone we love, little explosions go off in our core because the beauty, the closeness, is so unbearable. when we tune into sounds composed of intricately woven little notes, we are overwhelmed - by passion, by grief, by memory, by the ineffable. we speak to one another with combination after combination of sounds and frequencies, and through these words the perception of emotion, idea, shape is possible. we create and we build and design and explore, and yet even after thousands of years there is still too much creating, too much building, designing, and exploring to be done. and we love. oh, do we love.
and because all of this occurs on a little mote of dust illuminated by a dim little ball of gas in a vast expanse whose full stretch we can never wholly explore, we create our own universes. everything perpetual and new, nothing ever comes to a full stop. nothing can. we have all been set in motion, and it is the sort of motion characterized by lightness, the most ethereal sort of motion that exists. this is it.
I took out my snake bites and the holes are closing really quickly. I think there’s a keloid forming over the right hole on the inside of my lip. Being a grown up is gross.
WHAT NO. (Lol I say this because I’ve always wanted snake bites HEHE.) But it’s true, it always surprises me when I am reminded that you are 23. Because you are so young at heart~*~* HAHA.
Also, I saw that tag/post you had about my prof being dumb for saying virtual relationships are shallow. And I agree; mostly because, save for a few really special people I know IRL, it’s the people I’ve met over the internet that haven’t let me down, and are so frakking nice and accommodating and patient and kind.
I’m so happy that I got to meet so many awesome people, but it’s so unfair how everybody lives so far away from each other, because I really think that we should totally hang out.
breathe deep. the year is coming to an end & just think: your heart is one year stronger, your bones are one year tougher. we survived & we’re alive. it’s beautiful. the year may have been ups & downs, broken hearts, broken homes, broken bones but it will soon be behind us. take everything that has happened in & let it feed your soul to make it strong. learn from the past. we’re constantly learning. constantly developing. don’t let your heart grow heavy with things that have happened. your heart is already doing so much, let’s not burden it with negativity. feed it strong, encouraging words. make it a beacon of light. let us glow from the inside out with experience & beauty. let us glow.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us, it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
So live your life that the fear of death can never enter your heart. Trouble no one about their religion; respect others in their view, & demand that they respect yours. Love your life, perfect your life, beautify all things in your life. Seek to make your life long & its purpose in the service of your people. Prepare a noble death song for the day when you go over the great divide. Always give a word or a sign of salute when meeting or passing a friend, even a stranger, when in a lonely place. Show respect to all people & grovel to none. When you arise in the morning give thanks for the food & for the joy of living. If you see no reason for giving thanks, the fault lies only in yourself. Abuse no one & no thing, for abuse turns the wise ones to fools & robs the spirit of its vision. When it comes your time to die, be not like those whose hearts are filled with the fear of death, so that when their time comes they weep & pray for a little more time to live their lives over again in a different way. Sing your death song & die like a hero going home.
We know that life is good and that we are perfect and that we are responsible for our own universe.
you’re alive. your breath is warm, and there is blood pumping through your veins. you’re human. and you know what that means? you’re inherently flawed… and you know what? that’s fine. in fact, it’s more than fine. you know what it really means? you’re perfect. for all of your “flaws” that are all part of what makes you YOU, you are absolutely, undeniably perfect. thank you for being you. just the way you are. you are a beautiful, beautiful bird. the most beautiful. and I will always be here to tell you so when you need to hear it most.
sometimes you just need to love things with everything you’ve got. it can be exhausting but you need to do it because what if you don’t? live with no regrets. your heart is big & constantly beating & we need to open our hearts & let the things we love pump our hearts for us. the boys, the girls, the dreams. pump, pump, pump. let our hearts grow.
I think this is the point where the mind has to go on an evolving stage. The lazy mind cannot grasp it. The lazy mind cannot function. Things like cynicism and irony and negativity, those are syndromes of a lazy mind. It takes no effort to give in. It’s too easy to be a cynic. It’s too easy to be ironic. It’s too easy to be negative. It’s a lot more harder to be like Charles Bukowski or Tom Waits and find a piece of trash on the street and be like, “You know what? This is the best fucking thing I’ve ever seen in my fucking life.” It’s a hardcore romanticism. I kind of come from that school of thought. I think that being here on Earth is a gift to make a full use of before whatever the next stage is. A lot effort is required for that. I’m not scared of the effort and willing to give my 100% to speed up evolution. Something has got to happen.
our lives are mere flashes of light in an infinitely empty universe. in 12 years of education the most important lesson i have learned is that what we see as “normal” living is truly a travesty of our potential. in a society so governed by superficiality, appearances, and petty economics, dreams are more real than anything in the “real world.” refuse normalcy. beauty is everywhere, love is endless, and joy bleeds from our everyday existence. embrace it. i love all of you, all my friends, family and community. i am ceaselessly grateful from the bottom of my heart for everyone. the only thing i can ask of you is to stay free of materialism. remember that every day contains a universe of potential; exhaust it. live and love so intensely that when death comes there is nothing left for him to take. wealth is love, music, sports, learning, family, and freedom. above all, stay gold
our skin is marked with experience like rings on a tree. some of these trees have been carved with beautiful things & some of them have been chopped away at by careless human beings. each person you meet, a new ring on your tree. let’s let our limbs touch the sky.
(via you are remarkable.)